~*♠ AmbEr riVer deEp iN KaleIdoScopE ♠*~

What should i said?

Last night was the more nasty night of the end of the century…
First of all… i’m just acompany my dad to JBs’ General Hostipal, he was fetching my granny for operation… Why JB ? Hah! Good question…. cos is cheaper then the private one and the generalk hospital in Kluang…

Ok..after reach the front door of the hospital… i met my uncle…
"Eh! U din bring ur cloth to stay in the hospital with PoPo?" i’m like HUH?! what is this ? Why should i stay here? no body tells me bout it at all…

Plus, i got an appointment with the ebay seller… i have to bank in for my item as i promised my ebay seller… that one is still ok …so i phone them… and ask for delay….

then… i got no choice… i have to stay here to assist my aunt… cos my granny is really really fat….
Yesterday night… i’m so annoying and damn worried… annoying because the place i slp last night is damn lousy… a broken armchair… even my buttock will slum in it when i sit on it…
The string already break in to 2… but i still have to slp on it…. and the wad is vy horrible… just like the hospital in those ghost movies…. wheel chairs… old yellowish-white-painted bed and no body slp on it…. crippy medical equitements… Silent night… and the toilets…..hor~ jus like when ur doing ur business half way and a chopped- bloody head will roll to ur feet…. Cripy…and disgusting….

Phew~that was the first night… thank God i’m here at my aunt’s house tonight…. surfing net….

But the problen is i have to stay until Friday… who can help me to bank in the money to my Ebay seller? Headache!!! Al my SOOK PEIs’ Agreements become breakable….!!! DAMN!!

♥~Amber River flowing in kaleidoscope~♥

Hello!! today is my Big birthday… and i’m turning 21 TODAY!!!

Start my day at 6.30 am… of cos acompany my dad, actually is my grandma need to go to the JB hospital…ok rush to bathroom… cos is pretty late late late… already… and competing with the ticking clock …gosh i really need to pecah my bath-time record… i hear mumbling outside…

then, 2 hours later we reach the destination… my dad drop us at the receptionist and went for parking…Oh…he jus throw me 2 words at the receptionist… " Go find ur uncle,i ‘ll go look for parking…" In a place that i don noe what to do and don noe who i can rely on…urh!!! ok… COOL down!!! no hand phone…(i left it in the car)…all u can do is only wait….  Wait wait….

10 minutes later…

Finally someone familiar coming–My uncle…

then my uncle take us the another department to take the no…and wait for the number count down until us…

3 hours later…

finally… finish this long-endless-time-wasting waiting…ok then go back lo… Can not go anywere shopping….Straight foward go back to Kluang…

After drop my grandma at my aunt Agnes’s house… my dad and i when to high tea with his friends (actually is tea tarik at mamak stall) …then they went to a funeral…i jus wait inside the car…that time is almost 7… then i receive william and P.Hui’s SMS… haha lighten me a bit this whole day…

After that went to dinner…then aunt Agnes house’s, next here i am finally back home bout 10…

Surfing net…. not many ppl remember me bout my big day… INCLUDING my vy own brother MR. QCW…. Damn annoying… he go and add birthday comment to other ppl ,but ME?! He add NOTHING…at all…Heart broken at the same time….i even hear my fragile heart craking… (T.T)

Am i a very unpleasant person…is it dat i receive less blessing jus because i’m not a famous prom queen or not a rich baby? or is it because i’m not good in pleasing other ppl?! though sometimes i don want to think like this…. but realistic did force me to…

What i am? a rusty puppet? What am i?

I been tearing… yes i always been… i’m vy lonely…

不管怎样我都是要念！！！ 真的很过分，为什么领教的待遇这样坎坷？！真的有说不完的怨言。。。一进来这里工作就被减薪（只用SPM的薪水），每月RM300耶。。。不是小数目，三个月就一千块了。。。真的很讨厌。。。难道我不比别人努力吗？！难道我不应该得到我所努力的酬劳吗?! 那我为何要这样拼命？！为何我还要在三更半夜改簿子，牺牲我两三个小时的睡眠？！原来政府是可以这样决定我的死活。。。原来政府只要一句话，一个签名就可以把我贬成这样卑微。。。

我真的欲哭无泪。。。

开始时原因很简单，是我就读的中学学校SSAJ迟发我的STPM sijil。所有的学校都已经发给学生了（我的朋友们已拿到），就这有SSAJ 迟半个月才发给我们。我前前后后花了很多钱打了很多通电话去政府部门询问（因为别人告诉我已经出了，但我拜托老师们帮我问学校书记处，他们说要两年后才能拿，当时真得很无助！！）。。。可是他们却把我当球踢来踢去。到最后还问不出一个结果。。。过后就一直等消息，向朋友得知后我便马上去学校拿那份sijil.

我去拿时，所有的书记‘都’去听选举的讲座回了，所以那天下午我被‘赶’回家因为没有人处理这些事务。（早上的时间我还在教书）                                                                          第二天，同样时间我又回去拿终于被我拿到了。真的是呕心沥血才拿到。。。                                                                                 第三天，就马上递上去给书记室。。。 但后来听说政府不愿帮我做薪水单，就因为我迟那么一天。

就那么一天，政府就把我的一千块给吞掉。。。谁可以来帮我。。。。把我的一千块要回来？！